The mind would need to heal. Usually, it's a little painful. You have to remember what has hurt you, and then learn how to acknowledge and heal from it. It means reliving the memories your mind tried to hide away.
Lup told me that things happened the way they did because the Realm was influenced by our memories and our beliefs. She said she heard it from one of the leaders. So maybe that's the answer. We have to relive things here in order to heal the Realm and fix the nova problem.
If Miss Lup isn't correct, I wouldn't doubt she is close. If the leaders can offer up their memories to hold back the Realm... collapsing, if you will, then I imagine we and it are connected.
[He peers at Sora curiously.]
I wonder if we should be concerned with what caused it.
Maybe. [they should definitely be concerned, actually.] If we're all connected to it, and the Realm felt the disturbance when one of us was lost, then you'd think that'd mean that we would be making it more unstable than stable.
But we still don't know how the nova's attracted to us either. None of the leaders seem to really know. Any ideas?
[His brows raise knowingly at the mention of the Realm growing more unstable the more their unfortunate death disturbances happen.
But he shakes his head at the question.]
I have not heard, or found anything, unfortunately. I don't know if it helps at all in our case, but "nova" is when a start increases in brightness and then dims. So I've read.
You think they could mean the same thing? Memories that start out really clear until they fade away...it makes sense with what we know and what we've experienced so far. [though now that they're here, he remembers something else he wanted to ask.]
I don't, no. It's difficult to think about what you've forgotten when you can't remember it, isn't it? I haven't recognize anything I've forgotten yet, even though I know I have. It feels like some things are missing, but...
But it's hard to place where they fit. [there's an understanding nod.] It's funny. Some people realize it right away, but others really don't know because it's not something they think about a lot. I don't know if there's a reason for the difference, but I've also heard of people losing more than one at a time.
[Well, that's fucking worrying. Now he wonders if he's lost more than he realizes. How the FCK is he going to know what he's lost unless a certain circumstance of talking to someone?!]
Mister Won claims the leaders he's spoken with don't seem interested in bloodshed. I wonder why things would come together as competition then, why there would need to be a winner. Shouldn't everyone win--if we return home, if we have our memories back?
He's smart. I want to believe they all feel the same way, but in a group this big when they don't remember who they were...I don't blame other people for being unsure.
[but he nods.] I've talked to all of them. Some conversations have been more helpful than others, but they're all okay.
Mmm....Wolf and Tiger are a little hard to talk to sometimes, but I don't know if that makes them bad people. Maybe we just need to figure out how to approach them.
But otherwise? They all seem pretty nice and like they want to really help us.
Yeah. [...] Someone asked me what we would do if we found somebody who was happier losing their memories. Like if they lost a bunch of bad ones. I didn't have an answer then, and I'm still not really sure now.
But I wonder if our leaders are in the same position at all.
I had a talk with Mister Won about that, too. About how even bad memories can make you who you are, and how you may be different without them.
[His expression is soft.]
Remember when I said the mind sometimes protects you from bad things by forgetting? But morally, who would be right in taking even bad memories from someone just to make them happy.
That's what I said, too. Because it's true. [but that conversation didn't go so well on his end.]
...you're right. Memories, no matter if they're good or bad, are yours to keep. Even if it's better for somebody else or even for yourself, you can't just take them away and expect everything to be the same.
[...he's absolutely thinking about roxas now, but it also just makes sense to him.]
[Sora is thinking about Roxas, and Blanca is thinking about Ash. It's fine.]
I think if it is their choice, it would be different. If they decide they would not like to have those memories. But then what happens when they begin accidentally stumbling over discrepancies? When something feels like it's missing.
Then they want to know what has been hidden from them, even if they had consented themselves, and they search for it. It really isn't something to play around with.
...they start to wonder who they are. And they start to feel like they're helpless. And sometimes, they fight back.
[just. in general.] That's exactly right though. That's just another reason I want to try to get to know everyone and let people know that we're all on the same team even if it's a competition. That there are people who will help them. I don't think that's wrong.
It isn't wrong. [He smiles slightly.] You remind me of someone back home. Someone I don't know very well, but who I recently met. A friend of a friend, if you will.
His name is Eiji. He came to New York from Japan with someone else. Almost like a vacation, in a way.
He's extremely kind and empathetic. I don't think he ever gives up, even if he's scared. And his friend, Ash; he cares a great deal about Ash, even more than being in danger. He hurts when Ash hurts, and he hates seeing Ash hurt.
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You're right.
The mind would need to heal. Usually, it's a little painful. You have to remember what has hurt you, and then learn how to acknowledge and heal from it. It means reliving the memories your mind tried to hide away.
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Lup told me that things happened the way they did because the Realm was influenced by our memories and our beliefs. She said she heard it from one of the leaders. So maybe that's the answer. We have to relive things here in order to heal the Realm and fix the nova problem.
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[He peers at Sora curiously.]
I wonder if we should be concerned with what caused it.
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But we still don't know how the nova's attracted to us either. None of the leaders seem to really know. Any ideas?
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But he shakes his head at the question.]
I have not heard, or found anything, unfortunately. I don't know if it helps at all in our case, but "nova" is when a start increases in brightness and then dims. So I've read.
Almost as if it's being fed.
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Blanca, do you know what you've lost?
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[His smile is somewhat weak.]
I don't, no. It's difficult to think about what you've forgotten when you can't remember it, isn't it? I haven't recognize anything I've forgotten yet, even though I know I have. It feels like some things are missing, but...
[He shakes his head.]
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[Well, that's fucking worrying. Now he wonders if he's lost more than he realizes. How the FCK is he going to know what he's lost unless a certain circumstance of talking to someone?!]
Mister Won claims the leaders he's spoken with don't seem interested in bloodshed. I wonder why things would come together as competition then, why there would need to be a winner. Shouldn't everyone win--if we return home, if we have our memories back?
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...is that true? [why does he sound skeptical about that?] I've wondered about that myself. But...did Won say which leaders he talked to?
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To make sure they are consistent, I mean. I think he may have been worried they wouldn't be impartial.
[He peers at Sora.]
Have you spoken to many of them?
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[but he nods.] I've talked to all of them. Some conversations have been more helpful than others, but they're all okay.
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But otherwise? They all seem pretty nice and like they want to really help us.
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But I wonder if our leaders are in the same position at all.
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[His expression is soft.]
Remember when I said the mind sometimes protects you from bad things by forgetting? But morally, who would be right in taking even bad memories from someone just to make them happy.
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...you're right. Memories, no matter if they're good or bad, are yours to keep. Even if it's better for somebody else or even for yourself, you can't just take them away and expect everything to be the same.
[...he's absolutely thinking about roxas now, but it also just makes sense to him.]
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I think if it is their choice, it would be different. If they decide they would not like to have those memories. But then what happens when they begin accidentally stumbling over discrepancies? When something feels like it's missing.
Then they want to know what has been hidden from them, even if they had consented themselves, and they search for it. It really isn't something to play around with.
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...they start to wonder who they are. And they start to feel like they're helpless. And sometimes, they fight back.
[just. in general.] That's exactly right though. That's just another reason I want to try to get to know everyone and let people know that we're all on the same team even if it's a competition. That there are people who will help them. I don't think that's wrong.
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[haha trauma]
It isn't wrong. [He smiles slightly.] You remind me of someone back home. Someone I don't know very well, but who I recently met. A friend of a friend, if you will.
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How'd you meet them? [blanca just said they're a friend of a friend, but that doesn't mean much.]
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His name is Eiji. He came to New York from Japan with someone else. Almost like a vacation, in a way.
He's extremely kind and empathetic. I don't think he ever gives up, even if he's scared. And his friend, Ash; he cares a great deal about Ash, even more than being in danger. He hurts when Ash hurts, and he hates seeing Ash hurt.
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[maybe not to that extreme, sora, but again he absolutely sees parallels here.]