...There is one other. Blanca, that person that you know must be protected, and the same goes for the other person on my team. I will be speaking to my leader tomorrow, the moment I am able to ask for an audience, and I'll report back to you all when I do.
I...do not like thinking of myself as protected, but for the sake of my leader, I also need to stay alive.
The Thursday protection slot would ensure my own death, were I to be successful. And...
...I don't know yet. I won't know until tomorrow. But, if what I think is going to happen is going to happen, I cannot protect everyone.
If... this week is going to be as bloody as I believe it is going to be, I think the best possible outcome will be that we catch one person that I can protect. And that one person cannot know that they are being protected.
As harsh as it is to say... I think we should ensure you remain alive for as long as possible, even... at the expense of someone we may want to protect who isn't related to any roles.
[It does look like it earnest pains him to admit this. He isn't some holy man walking on green earth, but he unfortunately has emotions.]
[ yeah. xie lian grimaces. he hates it, too. don't worry. ]
I also had known my role could pass to someone else, so I have always put my life on the line. I am unafraid of death, especially to protect others.
But... now, it is about my entire team - and my team Leader, who will not be in the castle this upcoming week. He is in serious danger, and I do think that our team is the one that is the most likely to be completely eliminated. With that in mind, I cannot die. I cannot let either of my remaining teammates die, either.
[ gods!!!! just let him get killed for his team jfc!!! can this not be easy!!!!!!!!! ]
...This week... I made my decision, as I always do, on Monday. But when I attempted to use the power to lock in my choice for Thursday - it wouldn't work. Neither my Leader nor I could figure out why. We tried multiple times, and he let me know that splintering nova couldn't have been the issue.
[there are- people he would prefer to see alive, and he's going to have his work cut out for him to restrain others if certain people die. but in the end, if they can just ensure revival...
well, the ends have always justified the means, for emet-selch.
xie lian's explanation is highly concerning, though, and both brows raise at that.]
It simply failed? Were you not able to use it on another, then-- do you think it may be related to the danger your team is in? If a Leader loses power on Thursday nights...
[like, it's actually good that xie lian can't sacrifice his own ass if that's the case? but that's also concerning.]
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I think they would perhaps be desperate enough to try what they can to ensure the safety of our team. Not without discussion, of course, but...
[He glances at Xie Lian.]
We think we may have lost two, but we won't know until we are certain how many of us there should be.
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We have lost four.
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[he looks incredulous at that-- then exhales a slow sigh.]
If there is any way-- any at all-- that you may be allowed to tell or hint to us who must remain alive, do find it.
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I know of one other on your team; they have told me you weren't doing so well, but not how badly. Is it just the two of you, or...?
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...There is one other. Blanca, that person that you know must be protected, and the same goes for the other person on my team. I will be speaking to my leader tomorrow, the moment I am able to ask for an audience, and I'll report back to you all when I do.
I...do not like thinking of myself as protected, but for the sake of my leader, I also need to stay alive.
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[you have a role, come on.]
But report back as soon as you are able. This is something we must attempt to discuss.
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I know we don't understand entirely how your role works necessarily... but do you have any intentions of protecting either of them?
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The Thursday protection slot would ensure my own death, were I to be successful. And...
...I don't know yet. I won't know until tomorrow. But, if what I think is going to happen is going to happen, I cannot protect everyone.
If... this week is going to be as bloody as I believe it is going to be, I think the best possible outcome will be that we catch one person that I can protect. And that one person cannot know that they are being protected.
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As harsh as it is to say... I think we should ensure you remain alive for as long as possible, even... at the expense of someone we may want to protect who isn't related to any roles.
[It does look like it earnest pains him to admit this. He isn't some holy man walking on green earth, but he unfortunately has emotions.]
Which is to say, I agree.
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I also had known my role could pass to someone else, so I have always put my life on the line. I am unafraid of death, especially to protect others.
But... now, it is about my entire team - and my team Leader, who will not be in the castle this upcoming week. He is in serious danger, and I do think that our team is the one that is the most likely to be completely eliminated. With that in mind, I cannot die. I cannot let either of my remaining teammates die, either.
[ gods!!!! just let him get killed for his team jfc!!! can this not be easy!!!!!!!!! ]
...This week... I made my decision, as I always do, on Monday. But when I attempted to use the power to lock in my choice for Thursday - it wouldn't work. Neither my Leader nor I could figure out why. We tried multiple times, and he let me know that splintering nova couldn't have been the issue.
[ a beat. ]
I chose to protect Miss Hikaru.
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[there are- people he would prefer to see alive, and he's going to have his work cut out for him to restrain others if certain people die. but in the end, if they can just ensure revival...
well, the ends have always justified the means, for emet-selch.
xie lian's explanation is highly concerning, though, and both brows raise at that.]
It simply failed? Were you not able to use it on another, then-- do you think it may be related to the danger your team is in? If a Leader loses power on Thursday nights...
[like, it's actually good that xie lian can't sacrifice his own ass if that's the case? but that's also concerning.]
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I was able to protect someone else. Just not her. I am thinking perhaps that even if I had chosen Miss Alyssa, it would have worked.
...I think it is a case specific to Miss Hikaru, but neither of us could figure out why.
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[He doesn't like the sound of it, not in concerns to try to protect people, but he also isn't sure if it's a one time deal.]
We can check into it. At most, keep it in mind.